I hate  my family, SO BAD. I want to leave this house, even though im young im 13 yrs old my birthday is right around the corner. Its on July16! If you guys havent heard, im thinking about killing myself  just so I can have people to remember since I was born in July16 then I should die on  July16. Stupid as it sounds but I want it to happend that day! Yesturday my mom was invited to a Friends party, so my mom took me and my two brothers with her. Long story short, my brother Emilio is so ignorant and he has hatred towards me! Well anyways on the way over there, he kept telling me over & OVER AGAIN, “oh Lucero your ugly.. your ugly and tall.. ay fat *****”. that hurted me so bad, I tried to not let it get to me, because ive putting up with his bullying for YEARS 🙁 and still I tried to suck it up, but I couldnt take it. I couldnt be in a room with him , with him constantly calling me that! So I broked down right when we arrived at the party, and of course my mom and brothers seen me. So I waited in the car… IN THE HEAT. while they went to the party! I was crying in tears! and what was on my mind? SUICIDAL! Eveybody on here told me that I should talk to them about it, but I cant! I dont have that kind of family. Even though there supportive and one of my brothers almost done with college , the other one had a baby when he was 17yrs old, and the last one is the ignorant one! There all gunna look at me wrong of course, but I cant tell them what im thinking, unless they take me to a therapy place or something! Besides that i just cant. I came from a strict family because of there past! My Family beats me up when ever I do something wrong, or if I annoy them :/ But what the hell, we learn from our mistakes right? ugh! I just want it to stop, ima just wait till July16 comes!
P.S yes I did delete my older posts
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thats what i was thinking of doing. Being like william shakespeare dying on my birthday.
you are 13 years old. give it some time, you have a lot more time ahead of you to think about what youre doing. youre too immature right now to know that this isnt the right decision. there are worse things in life, trust me.
don’t feel out of place becuase you’re young and think like this. ive been there. heck im still pretty darn young. so don’t feel bad! but heres what i got to say, you are bEaUtIfUl the way you are, and you are perfect just being you! don’t listen to your brothers. God loves you, have you tried praying about this all or seeking refuge in him? I’ll be praying.