Hi. I have just finished registering, after having read the thread about exit bags. I am currently “planning†on suicide. I say “planning†because i have not put much effort into tying loose ends, getting my affairs in order, etc. I don’t have the time, or the energy. I just want to go. But I have a severe problem, I’m very very very very VERY afraid of any unpleasant physical sensations that I am convinced I will experience using the inert gas exit hood method (despite what i have read to the contrary). This is the method I would prefer though. Simply because although I am fairly desperate, and feel as if I don’t have time to worry about certain ramifications (who will find me, how will this affect the people I know, etc.) I am vaguely concerned about the integrity of my body during and after the end. If anything fails, I do NOT want to go on living with any sort of handicap that may result in any damage incurred therein. But i am extremely afraid of any feeling of suffocation, any pain, any nausea, because i KNOW my nerves will get me, and I will not be able to stop myself from removing the bag. But let me add that i also do not like the idea of restraining myself. Struggling would be very unpleasant, and i would prefer not to be found handcuffed. In case it would help anyone in composing advice to me, I would like to add that I am young. Dependent on others. Traveling to a secure and remote location would be ideal, but unfortunately I am unable. I am still uncertain as to where I will choose to do what I need to. This path has been chosen though, because I can’t go on. I literally can’t, I’m much too tired. I am ill. I need to hear words from others, I need imput. Please help me.
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My input is life does change. I went thru thinking I could not anymore…but I did, with many failed attempts…..I am still here and going. It is hard…really hard. Not knowing really “why” you feel you can’t. I can and will be here if you choose…and it is your choice. I hate to read someone so young not wanting to go on, I have been there and done that so please talk to me if you need
I think you might be mistaken as to my intention. I do know why I feel like this. I’m very sick, ill. This will happen. I guess I just wanted advice and peace of mind in knowing that what I am going to do will not and does not necessarily have to be painful and traumatic. Thats what I’m afraid of. But I promise I won’t be convinced to do otherwise. I’d rather go now then later on, when I’ll be sicker and probably helpless.
This site is a waste.
There’s no guarantee of any easy sure painless way out. Unless you have a gun and feel like redecorating the color of the walls. Or there’s always jumping…that’ll do the trick. But there may be some pain. My Dad used to tell me about cadavers he found in Seattle with jumpers who had legs scrunched up into their abdomen. (They had devoted their lifeless corpses to science). The jumpers would leap off a tall building, try to land on their feet, and wind up with their legs pushed up deep into their mid-section. They would continue to live for 30 seconds or so, in agonizing pain before dying.
I hope that helps. Best wishes.
hii
me im not down for this exit bag thing. Killing yourself based on some gas in which purely targets your brain making you brain dead… , i wouldn’t do that.
I was thinking like…on the verge of dying, in your brain, something happens and time stops, or slows down eternally, like in the furthest part of the edge of the universe where a slight movement such as raising your finger takes millions of years, and,,,, you fall into this eternal sleep, and into this eternal dream… but in reality it is a matter of instant…
so yeah if i did try to off myself i’d try to leave me brain alone… =)
i want to inject myself with like COBRA VENOM, that’s what i want to do.
but yeah, like if i did go on to off myself, i wouldnt do at home where,,, after people would have to deal with my body,, and have of this bullshiet,,, of whatever the fawk they do after som1 dies,, i’d like to be,,, like some1 said on here… up in the Himalayas, and be 1 with nature,,, and…. that would be beautiful,,, i mean,,,, you’d be surrounded by beauty you know? i wouldnt want to off myself in the middle of this piece of shiet sickening society,,
i,, don’t like when i curse like that,,, after it makes me feel degenerated,,sigh