so what i feel is everything i do is wrong. my story is… i was in seventh grade and one day i realized that no at all had hugged me or said i love you since i was injured falling off the roof at the age of five. i began trying to make friends preferably girls. i tried to be kind and gentle and kept trying to get that small hug, but nothing happened. later i was in ninth grade, i had frequent quiet episodes where i would ignore EVERYONE. during this whole time i was being degraded by a loving mother. i had often retired to my bedroom listening to eighties classics because mosy of those song i felt musically inclined to them because of their chorus’ and pitch differentiation. i would also watch the show doctor who and dream of becoming him. later or rather currently i have realized all i have ever wanted was one friend i could trust and to be able to play and listen to the music freely which no one today wants because its not bieber or those people. the one thing i would trade my life, everything i have, and my music for is to be the man in the tv show and save peoples lives and to travel with that one person. throughout these years i have tried commiting suicide but stop like ten seconds into it because i dont have the guts for it. so i guess i am just supposed to live in misery not being able to live my dream because it is not physically possible and i cant accomplish anything:(
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oh i forgot to mention i am planning to find someone to kill me rather than do it myself because it seems to me like i am a wimp and a failure
Please don’t kill yourself or get someone else to kill you…email me if you want to talk. I’ll do my best to listen and provide the love and support you truly deserve.
If you want to talk, drop me an email at Jessica-castle@hotmail.com
Don’t let go. <3