Well I been on drugs and alcohol secne I have been like 8 or 9 I am 31 and been shooting heroin for like 15 yrs or so I cant stop I have been to treatment 20 something times and nothing works I have destroyed any love and friendships I have had my family hates me , my dad told me a few years ago I should of shot myself years ago and saved everyone the trouble , I overdosed like 9 months ago and all he could say was I runed the blanket I happened to be half dead on choking , all my freinds I cared about are dead or moved on with life and left me hear .. I have tryed killing myself a few times one time I was life flighted I lost so much blood 6 grand and don’t remember the ride , and anouth time with a few hundred pills and 2 fifths of vodka and still no dice. And now everything is coming to a head everyone is gone everything is gone mostly my days consist of sitting around waiting for people to need dope so I can pretty much rip them off for my cut and now I am a few weeks away from being evicted I have no where to go I hate being addicted to drugs but can’t stop and wount , I have lost 80 pounds in the last 7 months , the only thing I have ate in the last 5 days are some cookies that I shared with the cat funny how people bring food for the cat and not me … Anyways I can’t do this no more and the people I thought I loved hate me so I am planing to 1 eather make me the helium hood witch right now I can’t aford or 2 I am going to go into the sporting goods store and take a 45 bullet from the shelf and I’m gunna keep it in my hand and when the guy gives me the gun I am going to put the round in the chamber and check out .. The only prob with this is I don’t want the people to see this so I guess I’ll break in ,, sure as y’all know there is good days and bad but when everyday is always bad wtf are you suposed to do therapy dose not work , phyc meds don’t work , and heroin only works when ya have money and the rest of time is hell I am looking for any reason to live but all the stupid shit opomistic people say just makes it worse so I don’t even know why I am writing all this maybe there is something that may make this. Better and the answer is not get clean I am past that point I have maybe a week or so before I am kicked out on the street and I don’t want to be homeless ever again so I have been selling everything I own to stay high till I am forced out and then that is it so what I really want to know is the helium hood work ? Or just and old school bullet ? Eather way I don’t want to suffer any more so what would you do ?
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My name is Chelsii Rene’… please contact me at renewrrn13@hotmail.com
I think I may be able to help you.
It’s worth a shot, right?
Heroin withdrawals last for a week TOPS/Worst Case Scenario, and on average 4 days or so. Dose loperamide (Anti Diarrhael OTC opiate medication) which in doses of 16mg to 32mg will stop withdrawals in their tracks. Dont take for more than a week however as you will transfer your addiction to loperamide.
The PAWS are tough but you can try excercise and running/weightlifting will supply endorphins to your brain and speed up recovery dramatically. All withdrawals are is your brain getting used to needing to produce endorphins indepentally. Your depression and dour outlook may be due to your having an endorphin deficiency since your brain relies on heroin to provide the endorphins. A week or 2 of quality excercise will show an insane improvement.
Things will certainly turn around once you begin to feel energy and health coursing through your veins – these natural highs makes heroin seem drab and pale – Believe me I speak from experience
Good luck friend