I want to be brave and end myself, I know by coming on here it probably says I am attention seeking or something or other but I am not I just need help, I dont want to mess up, I dont want to fail, I been lots of online reading and its all screwed up, I want the strength to be able to go through with it and not wimp out and be even worse the next time and the next time, the constant hurt, the constant fuck ups, the constant sorrow I bring to others and then I look at what I have? I have nothing, no one to trust and share my world with I am lonely I never thought I would be, I was always used to people in my life but I pushed each and evryoine away in order to make things easier, in order to protect them from the real me, the lazy, waste of space that I am, no good for nothing and no one, by me being here it does not benefit anyone? so what purpose is there continuing with my sorry existance, its all bull shit
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Hey there is always a light at the end of a tunnel dont let things put you down. The lord is just waiting to please you. Sure its hard to adjust to things but by the end of the day rome wasn’t built in one either.
I don’t see you looking for attenion at all. I know it sucks to be used by others. But let’s face it, this world is fill we people that wants to be on top even if they have to use others as stepping stones. I dont blame ya. I wouldn’t mind keeping my distances from others so I don’t get hurt but pretty soon being alone will suck. You won’t have anyone to talk to or hang out with. Just pick a few people that you can probable work well with. Or ask to see a therapist or something maybe that would work out well, but im just suggesting is all you font have to do it if you don’t want to at all. I hope you at least get better.