life is painful…but so is death

done with life . bored with life.  don’t want to move a muscle. too lazy to do anything..so unmotivated. if death could be painless i would have done it a long time ago. still searching for a painless way to end it all. i miss when i knew how to have fun..how to enjoy myself. every little bad thing makes me feel like suicide is my best option. even something as little as doing school work sets me off and makes me depressed and suicidal. i’ve lost all hope of being happy. i feel so selfish for wanting death..i know people would be hurt..few but still. i know they’d move on though. someone please tell me what i can do to be happy… to have fun…to not want to kill myself with every single little thing that happens. what can i do to have a good time and be at peace with myself. is there hope for me? please help me live