looking to die

Man, have I ever been there abouts. (talking about the girl, haven’t lost my mom)
It hurts. 20+ years ago I just landed what was thought at the time a life time job with a major oil company (they closed the plant). My wife went on vacation with my son and sent me a letter she wanted a divorce, ouch!!
I sat there night after night with a gun in my mouth, I could hardly make it to work everyday. Once there all I could think of was how much pain I was in.
Well that past. Today we email each other (she started it) and discuss the ill’s of the country.
Your young, very young (compared to me) give it some time. As long as your doing the next right thing, your daughter will appreciate you all the more as she grows up. There’s only one Daddy when it comes to a daughter.
My last wifes mother pissed me off when she told me something during the divorce yet it actually made a difference in my life.
She told me it’s “Time To Man Up”, I wanted to ripp her throat out when she said it.
It was the best thing she ever said to me.