It’s my 19th birthday next Monday and most normal people at the age of 19, in Scotland, go out to work, go out drinking at night with friends and get in and out of relationships with loads of girls. Whereas me, I’ll be in the house playing call of duty trying to avoid reality until my 20th birthday watching my friends get girlfriends, get paid from their jobs, go on holidays and generally enjoy their lives, hanging out with me at my house purely out of pity. That has been the sequence for the 17th and 18th years of my life so why should my 19th year be any different. Quite frankly, I wish my worthless runaway father had wore a rubber 19 years ago. I want to enjoy life and be like everybody else but I have no self confidence, no self belief and no hope. Doing nothing for the last 2 or 3 years has made me pretty useless at most things… except call of duty of course. I’m not overweight or ugly and girls used to tell me I was cute at high school so I have no reason to be depressed but I guess god just decided to make me miserable. If anyone wants to chat, my E-mail is jamiestruthers@gmail.com
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Lets xbox it up.
Simple way to pass the time while having a chat at the same time buddy 🙂
Will email you now.
Why should your 19th year be any different?
Because you are tired of the way your life has been going. Because you want a different life for yourself. And because making a change is the only way to get you there. 🙂
Take it one step at a time. You can do anything you put your mind to. Go out there, beat down that little voice in the back of your head telling you that you can’t, because YOU CAN, and you will. 🙂 There’s a beautiful girl out there just begging you to come get her. There’s a job opening with your name on it. You can do it, and I am rooting for you! Just take that first step out the door. ^^ Take care, be safe!
I get what your saying I feel the same way, except I never had anyone tell me I’m cute. I have live, my tag is the same as my username. I think that sometimes I’m a failure because I’m a year older than you and still have no life, no job, no anything….if your the type of person that takes comfort in know your not alone then I guess this will make you feel better. If not, oh well