Have you ever hated yourself so much you just want to put a gun to your head?
When someone is talking or trying to stop you that you feel the hurt feeling not from hurting everyone you just feeling really hurt emotionally not phsyically?
Although you just dont want to drop the gun you get closer and closer from pulling the trigger.
Listening to people’s problems but you just dont really care. You don’t care at all so much you just want to get up and leave?
When was the first time you listen to mine problems? Was it when i was about to talk you decide to leave.
Or just as i do the same you will yell at me?
Its not my fault i dont want to listen? Its your fault for walking out on me when i needed some help?
But soon enough you still have the gun pointing straight to my brain.
Everything that has happen had flash before your eyes.
Just thinking… i dont care i just dont care then you finally just pull the trigger?
Having your brains spill out then you fall? Is that so much of a crime that you have finally left everything.
I dont think i was selfish? It seems i was doing the whole world a favor.
One less person in the world to struck anymore tragic for anyone and anything.
For now i stuck here breathing this horrible air and living like there will never be a tomorrow.
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I understand. Even if said people listened, or gave a shit…it wouldn’t make a lick of difference. You think it would … but it doesn’t. Sad fact. The only thing you can do is write, release, and pretend to believe in hope.
You can get through. I know you can. *hug* Take care.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQgMVd8tCSY
This is a beautiful song.
I have a feeling like it fits
That makes me feel easy. It takes a simple pat on the back to make me feel better.