Today I feel like choking out. Do you know why? I started remembering intense feelings for my cousin Yasmine and I need to choke to suppress the thoughts. Maybe I’m looking for love, but it doesn’t help that I’m lonesome, close to insane (or so I think I am), and crazy for my cousin (blood of course it wouldn’t be weird with step cousins)… I am Facebook stalking her, staring at pictures and saving the pics onto my iPhone. At least I’m not thinking sexually or anything anymore… Fuck I hate myself so much. Should just die. Hope choking out will kill me or something. Make me do irrational things and get myself killed so I dont have to live anymore. Pleasure is hard to come by, so a lot of expectations go as low as falling in love with family (maybe even rape)
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Feels sooo good choking again heart rate slowed ah, feel better still in love…
I’m afraid of being in darkness and no sound… Silence music is on
Paranoia and fear is setting in. Rogue please protect me… I’m scared… Just won’t look up the slightest noise scared me I almost fainted, I should drink the smirnoffs early
hey dude, did you get the comment i left in your in 1 of your previous post, jus wondering =| , and stop choking yourself mAan
go do some push-ups and sit-ups instead,,, that’s a pretty idea though non? .. you could of been all buff by now
You want to get down and dirty with your cousin. Hit the gym.
That’s your blood. That’s just not right. Hit the gym.
Yeah I’m feeling better now. It was more Of a moment of insanity. Yet, I feel there’s no hope for me, so that must be why I don’t want to try. It seems like a lot of work to do. I need to take my drivers test to drive there, get a job to pay for membership and then actually go there daily