Loneliness, A longing for just one hand to hold, for someone to love you unconditionally no matter who you are. To live happy, not a mask of happiness, real happiness. Sometimes it feel as if the stars are the only ones who love you. Never judging nor betraying. Yet there hands are to far for one to hold. So the dark continues to envelope me in darkness. Must it be to ask. Probably so. So hard to fight for salvation. All I want is to be able to enjoy my gift of life. That’s what we all want. I don’t even know who I am anymore. Who I want to be, what is my purpose. That’s simple, I have no purpose, I’m fucking tired of being so lonely and judged and ignored and looked down upon, I’m tires of being the fucking laughing stock, I’m tired of being used, I’m tired of hypocritical friends, but I don’t want to be alone. I have no motivation to do anything. Nothing. I never get any sense of accomplishment out of anything.
All I see in the mirror is my ugly face, I cringe at the sight of it. I have anxiety, I always feel that someone is judging me. I don’t get out much, I rarely hang out with friends. I dread the start of school, at least I was somewhat happy during the summer.
But all in all I feel worthless, useless, unwanted.
Out.
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I’m unwanted everywhere it seems.
I understand everything u wrote here. And you are not ugly. First you have to learn to love yourself and than the others will come to you. I know it took me some time to learn that.
Loneliness yeah but we are here. I know its not same as real life friends but even so. Maybe thats why most of us are here as well.
It’s so hard to love yourself. And yeah I like It here. People respects each other.
True. Nihilis I dont know you but I respect you.
I don’t know you either but I respect you and everyone on here.
I feel the same way. I am ALWAYS wrong. I am the person everyone takes their bad day out on, and woe is me if I dare to assert myself. I feel like I was born under an unlucky star.
Asserting ourself, if I knew how. I can’t be happy around most people, they make it impossible to be assertive
frenzy maybe some people just always need an emotional punchbag, and if you are the sensitive and understanding type of person, and I think you are, then you become that emotional punchbag for them. And it is not fair on you.
That is exactly how I feel, AK.
Yes, they always tell you to be assertive, Nihilism, but it rarely works out well for the one trying to assert themselves.