Anorexic TeddyBear

It hurts.To see everything as calories.To exercise and starve.If I do eat it all comes out.I couldn’t think about being fat.When I first started I was 114 pounds 5’6.A week later I was 109.I saw how well it work I felt so skinny at that point then 3days later I felt fat.I thought I gained the weight back but I was still 109.So I did it again.104 in 1week.I knew it wasn’t healthy but I just won’t feel good at any weight.I see everyone eating hamburgers and if I ever put that in my mouth I think I’d gained 30 pounds.It hurts.To see everything as calories.