not gonna say names but someone on this website told me I was childish and fake for saying that I romance about suicide. I came to this site because I thought people could help me, but I guess not. I’m better off dead anyway. Good luck to you all. Bye.
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Well i certainly didn’t come to this site for help, but good luck with your decision.
You’re ridiculous. That person also called you a gifted writer. It was the act they described as being childish, not you. Sigh.
Whatever. I’m not killing myself just because of that person, there’s plenty of other reasons I have to die.
And not to be rude, but that is not childih, at all. That’s just their false opinion. And I’m offended pretty easily, I just can’t help it.
You can find help. You can be happy.
Everyone says that, it’s been 4 years and I’m done waiting.
hello @suicidethoughts
I read it! And it was kind of redicilous. That was rude what they say and your right you shouldn’t listen to them. If you are really going to comment suicide then I wish and bid you far well.
You may not have found the help you need, but you will find it if you keep looking.
The responses here should help, not hurt. This website is no place for trolls.
Hang on, there are better things ahead.
That doesn’t really change my mind but thanks for trying.:/
@suicideThoughts, Waaaduuup
You are talking about me and Liger is right. I called YOU a gifted writer, and that is coming from someone with a masters degree and minor in English Literature and Critical and cultural studies and an editing background (yes, I’m a tough critic, and rarely pay out compliment). It was the act of romanticising suicide that I was calling childish and fake.
It is depressive mentality to turn every comment inwards, and make it about how YOU are not good enough. Not even CLOSE to what I said.
Im really sorry my comment upset you, I was really torn with what to say. Because on one hand, everyone has the right to self expression and it should be encouraged. But on the other hand, I think romanticising suicide in this way really makes it appear ‘attractive’ to some people, and therefore I have ethical problems with this portrayal as well. It’s dangerous. Suicide should be a last last option, NOT a romantic fantasy.
I don’t believe in babying people. You will always get the truth out of me. I will never patronize you and tell you your work is good if I think it’s shit. What I was trying to say, is that you’re wasting your talent, and you could be so much better, but you need some authentic experience to wrap those beautiful words around. I want to see you grow your talent. You’re offended… because I disagree with your opinion and you also disagree with mine? So, you’re offended because we don’t agree on something?
You disagree with me. Prove me wrong. Don’t get offended. Be heard. It’s what every writer wants.
Sometimes the truth hurts but some things have to be said. If you take offensively it’s because your taking it the wrong way. Everything anyone says, whether good or bad should always have a positive effect on you, whether your happy for the compliment or you want to prove an insult wrong.
It shouldn’t matter what people say, but it does. It’s just how you react to what’s being said that matters.
I’ve always wanted to become a writer. I’m actually thinking on starting my own publishing company when i get out.
Sorry but your words are powerful and I couldn’t let you sell a fantasy of death. I don’t want anyone’s blood on my hands. Do you?
I’m a Marine, you kinda gotta rephrase the question for some of us.
Sorry TC. Bloods not on your hands… you got people to protect and the greater good and all that.
Your right, someone killing themselves because of something you said as opposed to killing someone with your own hands… I don’t see a problem with that neither
The greater good, that actually makes me laugh
I’m jus fuckin wit ya. You right it’s not a good feeling knowing someone’s hurt because of something you said. I say something stupid and piss someone off every fuckin day. But it comes wit being a fuck up. The thing about if for me is that I’m okay with it. I apologize to everyone i’ve ever offended for anything i’ve ever said. And i’m sorry for saying that one day. you don’t deserve to have that kind of guilt put on you, your too good of a person for that.
I romance about suicide as well actually. Though I am not sure by what definition you speak of… But by mine, I do.
And it sickens me.
TC, I am too tired to know what the crap you’re on about right now. All I’m saying is: I will NOT stand for anyone peddling a mis-representation of what death is. I do the same thing to that f*ckwit ‘ranesh’ or whatever who’s always here, pushing KCN. I tell that merchant of death to f*ck off and report him to the admin. The difference is, he’s doing it on purpose, and SuicideThoughts isn’t. I don’t think SuicideThoughts understands the impact her words can have and it’s dangerous.
Your absolutely right. Death isn’t something to be promoted
@Xboy, hey, haha whats up?
@ one_day, your right, I do disagree with you and that does upset me, and I’m not sorry for romanticizing about suicide, I love it. And I’m not a writer, so I won’t be living up to someone else’s desires. I’m going to kill myself soon enough, and I will be happy at last. And I’m sorry that I won’t fuck off, I’m sorry that you think my words are dangerous, but I’ll be committing suicide shortly so you won’t have to listen to me.
Im sorry to hear that. All of it.
don’t apologise for your words being dangerous, im gonna say it again coz u don’t seem to get it. Yr dangerous because yr good. That’s nothing to be sorry for. Except a wasted talent.
It’s not a wasted talent!! I don’t have talent! Just a bunch of bullshit from people who hate me.
Alright I just went back like 5 pages and couldn’t find what all the fuss is about.
So I am going to step out on a limb here – if I fall I am sorry.
SuicideThoughts – I know one_day, and she is a very decent person. She would not bring you down on purpose. She is not a troll dear. I do not and will not accept trolls onto this site.
And from what I gather on here… You wrote something and people disagreed and you got upset by it?
I write poetry. I love writing it and just as much love showing it off. Sometimes it clicks with people, sometimes it doesn’t. And it isn’t just poetry – any type of writing can be a hit or miss.
Like this
“Just a Fool For You”
Fake the truth
Take the pain
Ignore the questions
Cant complain
No one knows
The pain is true
Here it comes
The clock hits two
School lets out
Memories flow
Close my eyes
Feel so low
Taste of tears
On my lips
Pen in hand
Blood on wrists
In my mind
Always there
Engraved in my heart
She doesn’t care
Leader of my heart
General of my pain
To you my love
Was just a game
Stole my heart
Tore in two
Goodbye my love
It cant be true
Or this
“Forever Beautiful”
Soaked in tears
The scars run up and down your arm
It reminds you of all those years
Pain, suffering, loneliness
They introduced you to the knife
To have the pain bleed out of your body
Every drop for every tear you have shed
But your body is still so perfect to me
And you can never cut away that beauty
My demons are my own
They slither on the edge of the blade
Silently whispering my past and its regrets
All my fears, all my failures
They bleed out from my wrist
But inside I know they will return
I only want to see how soaked I can make the floor
In my sick twisted way I like the sight of the blood
Just another failure
My failure to be normal
But we see passed that in each other
You don’t see the black that has consumed my heart
And I don’t see the way life has torn yours apart
We only see the love and beauty from within
This eternal flower will never wither and die
And its pedals will remain strong forever
For we see the beauty in each other
That no one else can see
Many would say they suck. Some would say it’s good. If you post something you gotta expect feedback.
Good and bad..
I have a feeling I am way off – and I noticed you said there is more. Do me a favor… Tell me about your life before you off yourself. Either on here or some other way.
I’d like to be able to remember you.
@suicide. Once again I disagree that u don’t have talent. And what is the bullshit yr talking about and who hates you?
@pro go back to her previous post. I never criticised her work, I applauded it and criticised the subject matter. And… u are such a hopeless, hapless romantic. Get over the girl. But I suppose after that there will be another one… haha hopeless, and hopeful
You are just jealous it’s not about you Dingo
Not to mention the first one was written like…. in 2004?! Rofl
I am over her thank you very much. Don’t you have a job to do?! jk
And yes… I am a hopeless romantic and always will be. You already knew that.
And yes there will always be another. It’s not that I’m a super needy dweb when I am with them – I just never fully lose the love I have for them. Or maybe it’s just the memories?
@protoryu, thank you, that helps I guess, and I’m just easily offended because I don’t like when people criticize me flat out, I like constructive criticism, I’m only 16, almost 17 and I’m short, so people think of me as a child, always treat me as a child, and I don’t really have a lot of freedom, only when I sleep, I don’t really have friends, I’m so lonely and pretty much anything anyone says tp me now is hurtful if it sounds like it, I’m very fragile and need a lot of TLC, but I’m breaking inside and it hurts, so I just sit in my bed dreaming of ways to commit suicide, and I think your poems are really amazing
@ one_day, some of my family hates me for no reason, and some bullshit is that I always get blamed for someone else’s doings, always picked on and teased, I know it’s stupid but to me it’s painful, I lose sleep at night because I just want someone to hold me and tell me everything will be okay, but it’s been 4 years and nothing’s changed, it’s all the same routines and shit, do chores, cry of loneliness, slit my thighs, cry again
Yeah. Love hangs around even after the relationship is gone. Spot on, don’t get consumed by bitterness. Ok im going to go back to making some very important comercials to sell more shit to people that they don’t need
Love you XD haha
>.> boundries!
I will never let that down sorry.
But have fun.
And ST.. Thank you. Very much. <3
@one_day, I’m not bitter, I’m sad, lonely, and suicidal:/
@prtoryu, your welcome:)
I was trying to give u constructive criticism in pointing out: what u have, technically is good. Its the subject matter that I disagree with, but I maintain: good strong rhythyms and imagery in what u write. Just think there’s better application for it.
im sorry it sound rough for you. But I wonder how much of it is yr own low confidence, distorting the way you see other people see you? In the same way u misinterpreted my comment to u, do u misinterpret that yr family hates u and people blame u? The yr at really sux coz u got no power, no control, but it really does get better. The people that tease u just do it because their sad people who need to hurt others to make themselves feel better. Shouldn’t give a toss about people like that. Soon school is over and u never have to see them again. Really gets better, just gotta hold on and don’t buy the lies, don’t get consumed by them. Hang on to yr voice and be heard
Did I call u bitter? Im sorry yyou are sad, lonely, and suicidal. And we have all been there. And yr not alone. And im sorry and I can’t say that enough times because… I kno how it hurts. Sorry for the pain, anger and unfairness. But… hope for more. Because its there but you gotta open yr eyes to it.
It’s okay, at least I can dream of dying:/
And I am alone, there literally is no one I can talk with or someone to comfort me, I’m on my own
Contact me?
If dreaming of dying helps u get by, so be it. But this forum is full of people you can talk to, who understand wwhat yr going through. So if u don’t take pro up on the offer,then you are chosing to be alone. You have choices
Okay, protoryu do you have email?
protoryu@gmail.com
I dont check it often…
Skype or texting would be better. But I’ll make sure to check my emails often.