I am a complete fuck up. I screw everything up. I push people away. They dont wanna see me. They dont wanna talk to me. So whats the fucking point. When i die should i really say goodbye to them. Is it realy worth the sofe blow for them. Should i make them any fucking better. I hate my life. I hate the people who is always stare or talk about me. I hate the people that they make me even more of a fuck up than i already am. I shouldnt leave a note. I should just leave in silence and hope they find out what i really did. I dont deserve anyone. I dont deserve a loving boyfriend. I dont deserve anything. I will screw it up like i screw everything else. I dont know when. But when i am alone in my house. I will do it. No note no nothing. They wouldnt notice me gone. No one will. Lets face it. I am a waste of space. I am greeding up the air for my own. I should stop breathing right now hoping i just fucking drop dead. I see no reason to live any longer. I see i have no purpose here either. So why face the fucking challenges when i could be six feet underground decaying.