if only you could send a gun to my mail box

people are only looking for there happiness, but they become selfish and you learn sooner or later your alone and they where just looking out for themselves and when you asking for there help they go on like nothing happened. I’m done with this fucking shit, I was literally crying my eyes out to my best friend and no one could take out 5 minutes to help me, she said to me” i don’t wanna fight”, in my head i was like “what the fuck ,where you even listening to anything i was saying; i don’t wanna fight, i want to Die”, not everything is about you, she literally talk about herself anytime we talk,and has a fanatic when i don’t listen get mad and makes it about her. i don’t want you to convince me  to live, Mostly if you don’t wanna listen to me, you don’t even know me anymore or care to. no one else takes me serious cause i’ve told people i want to die, but still nothing is done and i don’t even know what the fuck is taking so long. i need a fucking gun.