Everyday, every single fucking hour, I wonder why im keeping myself alive. Any minute now, I may let myself go.
I don’t get it. I’m a good student, I’m popular, everybody in my school knows me as a really nice guy who gets along with everybody. I’m not like most people on this website who have nothing going for them.
But I don’t care. Better yet, I care too much. I wish, hope for, pray for the abillity to not care. Everyday is a rollercoaster of extreme highs and the deepest of lows. I can’t handle caring about every little thing anymore.
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Have medication and therapy?
Parents are blind to this. If I tell them, they won’t believe me
It’s not a bad thing to care, just a bad thing to care too much. Just don’t lose sight of yourself
My man if you need help you need help. If there is nothing really bringing you down you need meds for sure – if its not just a temp thing.
Those who are more aware of life and all it’s intricacies are often the ones who are more open to being let down by life. That rollercoaster…. well it gets easier to ride after a while. If you can’t talk to your parents, talk to a councillor. but it’s too early for you to give up now.
Maybe I do need meds. It’s just that there are always 20 different things going on in my life and it seems I never get moment of rest. I don’t remember the last time I was clearheaded. I know I live a privileged life, and I appreciate it, but there is no break from it. No moment of clarity
I have that too. But meds can help. I know its hard to find time in life… But this is your sanity we are talking about. Depression, grief, whatever for any reason nips at your sanity.
Please talk to a councillor or psychologist before running off to meds. Meds can help, but can also cause a lot of problems, and it has become an all too easy quick fix. If you’re lacking a moment of clarity… well, meds will probably make you even fuzzier than usual. Take them as a last resort, but not before trying a first resort!
I meant with psychologist help as well. You need both. Meds are only half the battle – therapy is the other half.
And of course there is always a chance you will not need meds or they may make it worse. There are so many out there it is sometimes hard to get the right one – and like Ann said sometimes they are not the way. I just know what its like to be down (sometimes for no reason) and meds help me over time – but that is just me. You could be the complete opposite.