Hello world..
i was wondering…
I have a friend. We’ve been going through hell 21 years together. She’s even more than my sister. When i was homeless – she opened doors for me, when i was in my families funerals – she quit her jobs and was 24 h with me, when i was hungry – she feeded me, when i was lonely – she always came.
We have met today. after 4 months beeing apart (she was working in foreign) i expected much more. All this time i had really big problems in my life and all this time i was waiting for her, finally to have somebody to talk with. And she was talking without stopping 4 hours.. She didnt even asked me a once – how are You? I wanted to scream that im totally muffed on everything, but just couln’t find a right moment.
We were standing on my mother’s grave-yard, and i said that if not my job, i would go to my mother, coz i don’t have any other reason to be here.. She even didnt react.
I am hurted.
But i am sure, that mostly of people from medicine would say, that we care about people, but nobody cares about us. Totally truth.
I can’t say im lonely. I have friends, lots. Just really can’t understand my best friend’s behavour.
i want to cry on her shoulder, but i guess something changed.
maybe sometimes people can’t feel each other’s emotions? Or we are being very good actors. I am sure sometimes people are too much in themselves that being blind for others. I don’t like it at all.
Or.. they just don’t want to absorb other problems?
But then.. why we have friends? To share, right..
3 comments
She probably just didnt realize how much pain you are in. Not everyone can sense others emotions all the time. Try not to be to hard on her unless it happens often. Then bring it up.
And sometimes friendships just end. It sucks. But so can life at times – and losing friends is sometimes apart of it. Talk to her about it – if she respects you she will be honest with whats up.
Sometimes its not that people are insensitive, often they are just really scared of saying the wrong thing, so they chose to say nothing at all. Either way, now you know at least that you have to stop expecting a sympathetic reaction from her. If you have no expectations of her, you won’t be let down and you can continue your friendship. It probably just needs time anyway, you’ve been away a while and most people need time for adjustment before going back to an intimate relationship.
Truthfully, no one outside of your line of work will ever understand the stress you go through, so I really hope you are downloading all the stress with your colleagues.