Fat and Depressed. But who cares?

I read about a study once where voters said they would rather sleep with someone who has AIDS than get to know a fat person. Tell me that wouldn’t make you feel like shit?

It was my granddad that taught me about hatred.

I didn’t even know what it was until I reached about 28 years old. And he knew I was hatred free- but he had to drill in the gift of experiencing hatred- now I just want to kill everyone. I used to be pure- not innocent- just purish

its not that you’re fat that’s the problem, its peoples attitudes to being fat. its not having support and family- if you have those things you can beat anything, and ignore society.

I don’t care about being fat, I am a ittle bit fat now- well hardly, but I am. When I get fat, I have the sort of body structure an type that even when I’m fat I don’t look fat.

I’m getting fatter now, because I don’t care what people think. I literally have lost my family, and true support- so I have devalued in worth and as a person.

Howevr I understand, feeling like how I do now makes me think, that I would rather contract AID than be seen with a fat chick. Then again, I don’t know if that’s true. When I come to suicide forums I just think why would I listen to a fat person? In Real life non-fat and ‘normal’ women don’t interest me, which is paradoxical because women flirt with me like crazy If I am not giving them attention but they think I’m cool. That makes me dislike women even more.

I have loads of intelligence, a brilliant intellect, good understanding of philosophy, theology, critical thinking, psychology, religion etc etc etc. People can see my logic and like it. But its nothing without representation, advocacy, social recognition, favourable work image, family friendships, support and warm relations with siblings and parents.

even better is when your family is interested in those things. the wost is when you have a completely unsupportive family, full of bullies, who always trash you for knowing and liking things everyone else you could ever know gives you positive social interest validation praise and recognitions and value and worth for- but your family hates on you.

you realise you genes are the worst quality- and it having a warm family that is the most significant marker in having friends, close friends and future or prospective partners and integrating with society and other families.

so there are far worse things than being fat- so I hear you- your have all the normal things accept for you being fat, your a woman I’m a guy, you were like perfect inverse.

this is not a coincidence, we are both on this website.

the message is perhaps an evolutionary psychology one, don’t breed, and dont survive.

scientists found a link between the brain and the nervous system. It is well documented stress and depression punishes our bodies and reduces our immunity- Human Nature is a bully, and the only people evolving are those that exploit that mechanism for their own gain.

so looking at it cybernetically, which would be easy with community and social or human intervention and education of cybernetics, we would learn to beat prejudice. unfortunately the will to respect and honor can be manipulated by those who control the national and concocts the moral frameworks of a nation. and they exploit the mechanism- this flaw- in humanity and have done so for centuries. They have taken one minority race on planet earth- and exploit that mechanism to destroy other regions states and nations in the world to enslave them to ‘civilized’ tyranny and prejudice.

The problem is bigger than ourselves.

yet with every solution the bigger problem, and the manipulated tendencies in humans on the mass scale is integrated with government and civil administration, and so we are exploited under a system of media dissemination and market control of populations through resourse management- enforced slavery to ideals and the currency is the tool used to do that- the systems of control are destroying the human mind

without those things suicide is better than life.