Things never get better, I attempted suicide earlier this year, however someone intervened. Maybe I didn’t want to die bad enough….I am still too depressed for words and want a way out. I thought it was my weight…I weighed 395 and of course no one likes fat guys….however, now I only weigh 270 and considering im 6 foot 4 I’m not all that fat. However, no one still finds any interest in me. I don’t know what it is, I can’t get a job, no one loves me and I’m pushing 30. My family hates me because they think I am gay…I am gay but I shouldn’t be hated for it. I don’t talk to guys at all nor women…no one finds interest in me. Oddly enough I am not ugly or so I’ve been told. I am just tired of EVERYTHING..I want to die, but this time I want to go all the way….
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there is a high level of support for people like you in gay communities. you should look into it. theres lots of good understanding people out there. i am not gay, but as an outcast i have found that those i have known were a hell of a lot more nice than everyone else
I agree with lostwithin. You may find a lot of support in the gay community. I tried killing myself earlier this year and didnt succeed either (clearly) and I get how you want to “go all the way” this time. I think I’m cursed or something because I had toxic levels both times I tried to kill myself and didn’t die. Drs. couldn’t explain why. All I know is I sure as hell don’t want to live through another attempt and end up in the psyc ward again!