What am i doing in school? One of my teachers took me aside today and asked about a whole bunch of essays i hadn’t turned in, and “was i going to finish them? And what of the oral presentation you have on week 50? If you don’t do it, or don’t turn up, it won’t be fair to the other students”. What can i say to that? I know i can’t do any of those things. But if i don’t, my teacher will be upset with me, I’ll fail even more, and my parents will eventually throw me out. I’d managed to shut it all out to some extent until now, but now i just feel so miserable…
I keep overdosing on painkillers, hoping for something to happen to get me out of here, but so far no luck. All I seem to have done is make myself more attractive to mosquitoes. Who knew they were still awake in the middle of november?
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Isn’t there someone a little more sensitive and mature you can go to?
You’re evidently rather lost, and your teacher and parents sound like they’re mostly just making it worse?
fuck your teachers, fuck your school, its all bullshit made up by society because they want all of us to be the same, all ”normal”, its just bullshit
More sensitive and mature? Yeah, i thought i did that on one point, she even said she’d help me… But… Nothing happened, and it kept happening. We’re not even in the same class anymore, she’s just gotten engaged, and… I lost her number when my old phone broke. I just don’t want to take up anyone’s time. I mean, it’s not like i’m worth it.
You’re worth it. Is there anyone else you can think of?
Not IRL, no.
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