I’ve been thinking about sucide for awhile. See the point is I hate my life. I’m so alone, ugly and fat. I’m a pathetic loser. No guy would ever love me and I really don’t have friends. I started college a few month ago and that getting to me too. I honestly don’t what to do. If I kill myself I know nobody would miss me, so why don’t i do it?
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Cass you were wrong on two cases. You can have friends and a guy who loves you. Are those your only two issues and concerns?
i know what you mean nobody miss me either,i’ve always been the outcast who no one likes and gets picked on…i wish i could die
No, I just feel lonely all the time.
How is school going for you thus far? What college do you attend?
It’s hard.I rather not say where I’m attending.
Okay I respect that. I was really trying to make light conversation. Did not mean to make you feel uncomfortable. I thought after high school, life would get so much better, and college would like how they portray it in the movies. Not true Cass. Although I did learn a lot about myself there and met someone who was really special in my life for a few years.
I just don’t feel like I belong here.
At the college? On Earth? Both?
i know what thats like…i dont fit fit in anywhere
Read some books for e.g Dale Carnegie “How to win friends and influence people” this will help you to find friends. If you want to loseYou can always start going to a gym or just running or swimming, any activity would be great at start.
As You already noticed or thought about it… Yes, it’s hard work. To be a better person is a hard work. But in a year you would be totally different. After 5 you will be happy 🙂
I wish Shred was correct. I actually read “Convince them in 90 seconds” and a few other how to books for my job. It is a very people dependent job. I work out almost everyday. I am a fit person and I even eat healthy. Working out should release certain endorphins and make you a happier person. This did not work for me. It may work for you though heart. I think it goes beyond those things. I think it is a mental and emotional condition which cannot be eased by doing the things “normal” people do. I think it takes a mix of therapy of various types and also (as you stated prior) struggle. The hard part is… why fight and struggle, just to struggle more. When the end result is… I may be happy one day.
I really don’t know what to do anymore.
You are doing the right thing as of now and reaching out and trying to talk to someone
@cass, some people just don’t belong in mainstream society, so stop trying… you will just make yourself misreable by trying to become someonw else. Instead, make your own place in the world. But stay true to yourself