me against the world

I was16 years old, I have tried/thought to kill myself four times, and this is my story… It started in Feb. I overdosed on 8 pills, no one knew. Then in may I tried to jump out of a window, i only started to open then i stopped. Things started to get really bad in Oct , my cousin that past away, my mom was taking care of my aunt, so she was out of the picture for the time being, me and my little sister were always fighting, i have been struggling with anxiety, depression and a eating disorder, for years. Only if i new things were to get this bad. couple days later I opened my window took of the screen and held on to the edge had one foot out of the window, I STOPPED. i though about it.i just close the window… just crying the hole time….. then came around another week and i was just having a really bad week. I took a half bottle of purple pills and a couple another pain pills and swallowed 16 pills and more in less then 6 minutes. I was disappointed in myself, i told my closet friend who then told me i had to tell me parents
at this point i was getting cold and very light headed. But, I didn’t have time to get up to tell my parents. i fell in the floor in the bathroom They then rushed me to the hospital and I was seem ASAP. I had to stay for three days in the hospital they gave me medication and did a lot of test, everything came out clean after, i felt like a ghost inside. I then spent an another week in rehab. My parents are so scared, but i wasn’t worried at all, i felt like god didn’t need me to end my life… i opened my eyes and see my friends are there for me 24/7. I only hope i can learn and this be apart of my past and no longer a part of my future.