So. First off I hate life. I honestly see no point in me being in this world. Suicide is very tempting, but scary. My parents, honestly, dislike me. I want to get out of my house, might run-away, not sure yet. I just think I’m useless in this world… My friends always put me down in a joking matter, but it still affects me, even though I tell them to stop, they keep on. I’m 15, and yes I’m mature, I’m not being a ***** about life and crying over everything. I used to believe in God, but everything went down hill, so I lost ‘faith’. I’ve tried talking to people about this and there always like “I feel you man.” I honestly just want to die… I don’t feel like going through the rest of my life in pain and agony. This won’t end, what do I do…?
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15 is way too young to die. You have no idea what awaits you in the future.
Nothing awaits me.
You’d be surprised at what the future might bring. I totally understand how you are feeling. Trust me I have been there and so have many other people, but you just have to wait it out. Sometimes we just have to hit rock bottom for a while before our lives can start improving. As far as your parents go… don’t let them bother you. A lot of parents don’t understand that kids lives are stressful too. Just try and stick it out until you are 18 and then you wont have to deal with any of their bullshit anymore. Please don’t do anything stupid though. You still have the rest of your life left to live.
Yeah, trying to do that, just life is boring, same routine every day, along with parents bugging me… Tired of it.
I know you probably hate to hear this, but I feel like I know where you’re coming from 🙂 feeling like anything you do is pointless and that to give in and do or be nothing would be the greatest feeling ever. Fifteen is a tough age and can be emotionally soul-destroying. I know it got mine. If I could give you any advice, it would be for you to think about why you feel so pointless, useless and hopeless because you might be able to find within yourself something personal to live for. That advice would have spared me years of struggling against indifference. Let it be. Feel what you feel completely, without trying to rationalise it or tell yourself you ought to feel differently or shouldn’t be feeling as you do. It may even help you to keep a journal of what you are experiencing when you feel like nothing. I hope things start looking up for you soon, NR.
… Thanks. Appreciate it.
I have the same day after day routine. And I’m tired and just want a way out. But something keeps holding me back, something keeps showing me that one more day might be the day where that one thing I needed will change things. I’ve been waiting a very long time for this one thing. Some days things are good and some days things are just horrible and all I want to do is find some place to hide. You have found a great place to let out your feelings and not be judged by people. Everyone here has their own hurts and you will truly find someone that really does know what you are talking about and feeling. Keep posting here, you may find what you were looking for.
Same thing i’m doing… Thanks, really.
At 15, I think life is supposed to be a total shit hole, lol. Give yourself some years and at 24 or 25 you still feel like shit, then do it.
A lot of suff gets different over a few years.
I feel like you are me 15 years ago. Im 30 now and still stuck with my parents and hate it here. I dont want to get stuck on my story so. Number one suggestion i can give you… is follow what your gut instinct says.. to get out. While its still possible. If things dont seem right around you and your the singled one out getting special maltreatment and they always get the winning beneficial side. Put all you got into it while you still have time. Forget doing favors for them assuming they will do it for you even when they tell you, “we would do it for you” is a trick statement. I waited most my life for them to follow through with their statement. It never happened. You still have time. Dont let them overburden you with stress to manipulate you. And maybe dont go out of your way for people that you already know without question would do it for you. Suicide isnt the answer. Thats only you you will hurt. That wont effect people who dont consider the impact of what they do and how it will effect others negatively. They are all about easy for them, benefit them, and now at all cost to whoever will allow them to. Second best suggestion for you is. At no time for any reason whatsoever should you isolate yourself from your friends and social life. No matter what they do, complain, blame or conflict they create to get you to believe that you want to not keep your friends around. Isolation will be a huge mistake, you need company to talk to and they can help you process what you are having trouble with. By yourself you will lose because they will get you to question your head. Keep a friend around as much as possible to verify what you think. Next is progress. Moving foreward with a plan without letting them take that plan from you. Its your life and your choice. Not theirs to take. Make a plan do everything in your power to keep them from taking it. Dont buy material items which are easily stolen. Start working and put money aside. Dont tell them you have it. Only buy what you have to have not what you want. It will be worth it when you leave so focus all your attention and put all youve got into your plan because your life is yours and for you to decide how to live it. But if you dont make the important decision to not trust those who do you wrong and get away from them no matter how close they are to you. Morals and ideal are your enemy with these negative people it will convince you to let them do it again and again. While you still have the chance make the decision and plan and get away no matter what it takes. Dont spend your life waiting for them to do you right that day will never come. Your life, what you do with it. And where you GO is yours dont let them take it from you. More important dont take it for them