Each day I tell myself to get through one more day…… Â what I consider to be real opportunity and logical timing are right on the horizon….the very things that guide my want and need to end this misery are the right here with me….day after day…but I feel so caught in this quagmire of inaction…I keep adding “extensions”… the next chance will be here soon…. and I worry I will just add another extension and keep self-perpetuating my own misery just to spare people I love sadness and hurt…..
….. I am already nauseated by all the “its the holidays…love and cheer” happy crap I could scream…… that alone makes me want to just end it all now….
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I hate the holiday stuff too. End up getting yelled at and judge just like very day. Once i end my life i won’t have to bother with any of this giving and cheering and seeing family.