This is the beginning of the end as Churchill said. I have done the research and made all the right preparations. I wanted to post something anonimous but it’s hard these days it seems. Anyway I’m calm and ready. I feel only now what to write and how. Be nice if it was memerable but not likely. Never been much of a writter. Odd that at the end I feel no sadness, or fear, just rage at the price of my red wine. Not even that good. I know medical staff don’t understand, oh they have the facts and theories but only a bat knows what it’s like to truely hunt at night. This means those few who care find it much worse that say a car crash. Life’s a *****, just ask the dinosaurs. But such things come with being alive. Choosing to die is something most can’t handle. My motivation to live, right now, is that I would annoy people a hate. Somehow to get back at them for not being dead. Ouch that’s a punishment. Been here many times but this time got is researched and sorted. To die to sleep perchance to dream. Or I’ll br next to sysphus rolling a rock up hill for all time. ooo the classics
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Enjoy the eternal sleep
I hope you’re still alive. I hope that if you are, you will someday see the beauty I see in you, just from reading this. You deserve to be alive.