Why Can’t I Die?

You feel like your body will just explode!… and you wish and hope and pray that it will.  There’s so much anguish and desperation built up inside you that you just can’t take it any more!  Screaming doesn’t help. Running doesn’t help.  There’s no way to get away from it.  Well… there is one way.  But if you do that, your ‘loved ones’ will say you were a selfish coward.  As long as you keep living with the pain they are happy.  They want you to be this way.  If only they could experience it just once.  Then they would understand.  Why can’t God just let me die?