I cant do this anymore, suicidal thoughts have come back and they are as strong as ever….
In two weeks time I have to return to school, and I’m terrified at that though, it’s such a simple thing that nearly everybody does but I don’t want to…. I have exams coming up so I’m stressed about that and the OCD doesn’t help…..
Suicide is the only way to end this pain……<3
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I know. Sometimes I want to run away to the desert or north pole or some secluded place and let nature end it for me.
Honestly, I would prefer to do it myself rather than let nature run it’s course. I want to be in control of when I die.
I self harm, and I was told by a teacher that people usually self harm because they want to be in control of something….
Ironic right?
Xx.
The trick is not giving a shit. exams, life everything just think that u will die and none of it matters nd ull be suprised how much better ull feel with out the burden of having to do well. just be carefull not to take it too fare otherwise u could end up killing urself nd then we would be sad to loose u
Hi Nat,
This time of the year, exams/holiday times put young people through a lot of stress every single year, year after year.
What i will tell you is this, that your entire life doesnt boil down to one single exam r even one single year and how well or how poor you do. It juts doesn’t.
I have a few friends who left school very early because they couldn’t focus, or hated it, or had home issues, etc and then after working for a few years in average/crappy jobs, used that money to come back and finish school from short course diplomas to degree’s. Two of these dropouts used that early motivation to become something and are now successful senior types in large companies making hundreds of thousands a year. One works for a law firm and one works for a mining company. Bother earn well over $400,000 pa. And Both were high school dropouts.
Learn to try and do your best by being relaxed but focused. You didn’t succeed to walk the first time you stood up as a child, or ride the bike the first time did you? Everyone is too impatient today and not told the truth. That it all takes “little steps” of trial and some error – not giant strides.
Learn to relax is my first bit of advice. Have a broad goal of what you want to do with life. Have some inner principles about life and people, and then just go for it…..
ps always happy to chat/elaborate/help if i can via here/email/msn should you wish.
People have different issues and nuances so it takes the same nuances in useful replies.
I hope you have a lovely, or at least ok xmas period and don’t fret so much okay?
Learn to control your mind and thoughts and all good will follow.
Stay well.
AdAs
I’m terrified of everyday things that you have to do in life. So I understand. This probably won’t mean a thing but, try not to get too stressed about your exams. Just do the best you can. That’s all you can do. The rest doesn’t matter.
ps; you are always in control of things, good or bad, you just don’t know it…. trust me. 🙂
Thanks Adastra, I would love to chat sometime? I know I’m probably overthinking this but it’s what I do, family and friends tell me exams aren’t everything and then teachers and people at school tell me things like the rest of my life depends on how well I do in the exam, I have considered dropping out just to escape and of course… Suicide.
All of those people don’t really understand why I’m struggling to cope with exams and school life :/
Xx
Hey Nat & Good,
My email – add my handle name here to 389@gmail.com. For msn i’ll give it to you over email.
Stay well