Ok, so apparently, being suicidal is a bad thing.
They approach my “condition” with scorn.
They ask me, “Why can’t you just be normal like everyone else?”
They throw pills in my face and tell me to get better… As if it was that simple. LOL… I’m a waste of space in this morbid world, and, pills aren’t going to make it all better. So far, they haven’t. And it’s been quite some time now. 🙁
Honestly, I don’t wanna be like this… ‘I am (in the words of Korn) clearly broken and no one knows what to do’~ >_>
So apparently, being suicidal is a bad thing…
Well unfortunately, for those who think so, I’m already dead. And one of these days… True death will catch up with me. It’s only a matter of time, is it not? I mean, time does heal everything anyway. :/
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Oy!!!….being and feeling as you do is completely normal. Owning and accepting how you feel is the 1st step to feeling something better. Normal by others standards is boring…apparently you feel the same. When we say something is bad, we are judging it, and preventing ourselves from seeing the wisdom to be learned from the process.
Most do not have the courage to approach this challenge in this way. My quality of life isn’t what it was, but boy, I’m more real, loving, easier to be around, helpful, kind,
empowered….cause out of all this I learned to love, accept and appreciate myself unconditionally. I intend and hope this for you in the best way that it will unfold for you.
Know this!!! Give power only to your thoughts and beliefs and the experience you are having. To be in denial is the best way others can deal with something they so wish would never happen to them, so they project their cliches…you go girl…you go as well as you can. You deserve the best!!! What’s positive is beneficial, so maybe you’re in a position to tell those around you to smarten up and be a better support to you by getting real and being real about how you feel. Nothing is more important than, that you feel good!!! Period. Check out the John Bradshaw clips on youtube called ‘Homecoming’ May shed some light for your lovely self. Take care.
Try stay positive Ms ‘thatgirl’,
Don’t always think everyone is out having the time of their lives because they are not. So whilst you might be a little down in the dumps this time of the year, use this upcoming year to start deciding on some plans for a better life.
Ever want to chat or advice, always happy to help Ms.
Take care okay.
@softsoul I checked out those clips you recommended. And, they did help some. Thank you. And by the way, I’m not ‘not normal’ in a good, original, creative way. It’s more in a differet, weird, awkward way. :/
Though, thanks to all for the support… It does mean a lot. -sigh- One step at a time I guess…