The little thought
it grows
a cancer of sorts
Left overwhelmed
the thought still growing
turning into action
leaving me helpless
The choice is mine
but maybe not
it’s the thought
the cancer growing
No room for hope
for a purpose
for love
Left with nothing
just the thought
and the pills
3 comments
Assuming the “thought” is suicide and you mentioned pills.
I tried to end it all 10 or 12 times this past year, twice with pills. Its such a crap shot with pills. Don’t ever think anti derpresants will kill you, almost all which try this live.
I tried an overdosee of extreme butt common muscle relaxants, I woke up , ugh!!!!
I tried an over dose of heroin, (snorted) it was at least 4 dyas worth, I woke up, ugh!!!!
I need to end this, its really close to Christmas so either now or wait a month.
If your very young teens or early 20s, please seek help, I’m an old fart and no use to the world or any of my family.
We all are born and we all die, ………. so why am I afraid to just do it. I don’t have any pre-birth memories so why would there be anything after death.
I’m currently seeing a therapist and am on plenty of drugs, but I just get taken over by suicidal thoughts. Its like I’m possessed by the idea of killing myself. No reason really, I mean I can think of reasons why life isn’t worth living, and I can think of reasons why it is worth living. But in the end none of it matters because I just can’t stop thinking about suicide. And I know pills wont work I’ve tried 4 times and failed, obviously.
Pilss will and do work, yet itss the combinations of what, when the last time you ate, had you been drinking etc.
I sleep with my instant death, yet am reluctant to use a gun for political reasons. I’ve slept with a pistol for the last 35 years.
If I had shot up that heroin I would be dead, yet thought snorting would get the trick done.