I recently got accepted for a college course which starts next Monday but just this morning they contacted me saying there was a problem with my application and I’m no longer accepted for the course. I actually felt like my life had a point again up until now. Now its gonna be another 6 months sitting in the dark watching other people enjoy their lives. Back to the emptiness of feeling nothing but hate and shame. Oh well. Somehow I doubt I’ll be around after those 6  months. I’ve simply had enough. Also in my previous post I mentioned not being able to kill myself because of my mum. Well she’ll have to accept it because I can’t go on living this joke of a life any more. I’ve been wanting to die for too long. Pity Santa didn’t bring my a rope for christmas.
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Why is it you can’t do what you want to do irrespective of whether or not you’re able to take this course or not? What else is going on?
I’m guessing there’s more to the story but why are you allowing your response to an external event dictate how you feel? The ball is always in your court and you can always
make another choice.
So many people on here thing their marks in school or college define who they are and their capabilities in the world. Some of the most successful people never went to school, they knew it was within themselves to make something happen. Obviously it’s your choice when to throw the towel in, just seems a waste when you seem to be playing by other people’s rules and not your own. Good luck.
I know how you feel. Right after high school i was accepted into a state university. I was thrilled! But shortly after, I recieved a letter stating that therr had been a mistake; my exam scores were not high enough to compensate for my average grades. My acceptance was revoked. I was humliated and thought my life was over. However, i enrolled at a community college for 2 years and then was accepted an graduated from one of the top universities in the world! So you see, things often have a way of working out. I’m sorry about the course but i know somehing better will come along for you. Try not to give up hope. Much love to you!
Cheers softsoul. I know what your saying but I have absolutely no confidence or motivation to do anything else. It was hard enough trying to get onto this course never mind doing it all again. Na. Towels already thrown in. Think i’ll just play skyrim til I get bored and think about ways to end it all. Skyrims the only joy left in my life and that’s so pitiful its unreal. Thanks again.
College isn’t everything but yes it can make you feel better about yourself. So listen..if u can write, talk, see, walk..then why give up. God can take care of you if you believe in him..that’s really all you need.
hey jamie, wanna be pals? I’m a HUGE elder scrolls fan(though I’m primarily a console gamer, I wore out 2 PCs with Morrowind) and I’d love to hear your thoughts on skyrim. I haven’t bought it yet because of my backlog of games (that and deux ex3 are my next purchases) and I wanna get it when used copies are $20 and below. If you’re interested at all in chatting, making a friend, here’s my email
hugginspowers@gmail.com or sound.222@hotmail.com