how can you love someone like me.

@crewde, thank you and i agree. that’s the thing though, is that’s what i’ve been trying to do. (FOR MONTHS) i gave up talking to basically anyone except my family, for him to try and make it work. which was totally okay with me. i stopped doing any drugs except occasionally smoking weed. and still able to drink with his family. i had a lot of conditions. and whenever he wasnted to fight. i WOULD talk. i understand how it makes him feel and why he gets upset. and i let him know in a calm manner. but, thanks. that helped.

@softsoul, i’m gonna have to agree. lol.

@traptsoul. like i said to crewde, i have explained it. and it’s becoming so stressful that i don’t know what else to do. i changed my number and now only a select few people have it but, he still can’t trust me to simply pick up the phone to text my sister. and like in your parentheses/brackets, i told him that too. but thank you.

@dawg, thank you SO much. but he doesn’t understand that. that i’m hurt because of what i did. not because i got caught. i’m hurt that i hurt him but i’m also hurt because i also hurt myself in doing it. BUT, i cannot forgive myself and we cannot move on to better days until he forgives me. and i don’t think he ever will. it’s been months on end. and i don’t know what to do. also, in the end of what you said, i might be one of those people who would put myself in that position of being hurt because that’s all i’ve ever known. and maybe that’s why i did it. because he was nowhere near anyone that i’ve ever been with before. but, thank you dawg. all of what you said was almost elightening.