I don’t know what it is I apologize for.
“I’m sorry, Peter.”
I apologize for everything; every action I take, every move my friends make, every problem that comes up.
“I’m sorry, Cordell.”
Someone loses something, “I’m sorry.” Someone questions my meaning, “I’m sorry, I’ll stop talking.” Someone finds what I said not as serious as I intended it, “I’m sorry, I’m just being stupid.”
“I’m sorry, Joey.”
What is it I’m trying to apologize for?
“I’m sorry for being such a burden.”
“I’m sorry for being so difficult.”
“I’m sorry I’m not the friend I should be.”
It’s worse when I apologize to my mom, unprovoked.
“Sorry? What for?”
I suppose I’m sorry for being your son, for being so hard to handle, being so sad so often, for not living up to what I should be.
“I dunno, I’m sorry for wasting your time.”
The worst?
“I broke my promise again, Peter, I’m sorry . . . . I’ll stop cutting today, I promise.”
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Ilovethis. I’m always apologizing for everything as well, it’s kind of just habit now, and I always think I’m wasting peoples time too…. X.
After the first time I slit my wrist really deep, my mom made me promise to stop. It was horrible when she found out again…
I really love the way this is written.