Was just wondering if anyone else had similar feelings or experiences to me.
Sometimes i seem more vulnerable to depression and feelings of hopelessness straight after i’ve had a brief moment of happiness.
If i have had a brilliant day, looking on the positive side and am rather happy with my life. Well, i find that this feeling is extremely brief and always leads to me feeling deeply depressed and pessimistic.
It’s almost like i am punishing myself for the way i just felt. Only subconciously.
Maybe it is the chemicals in my brain, an imbalance that must release too much Dopamine, affecting my Serotonin levels.
Has anyone else ever experienced this?
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I know exactly what you’re talking about. I’ve experienced it many times in my short lifetime, and it makes it so much more difficult to actually enjoy the good times when you know they will invariably be followed by depression.
Many people would probably suggest bipolar disorder. But I think it’s really just the ups and downs of normal life. You’re happy until something causes you to be sad, and then you continue to be sad until another event is able to lift your spirits.
I’m not saying that it isn’t bipolar disorder, or some other chemical imbalance. But sometimes, knowing that it’s just how the world/life works is a whole lot better than thinking that it’s something wrong with you as an individual.
~Ashley
Thanks for confirming that. I just really wanted to know if others felt the same. And your way of thinking Ashley seems more optimistic, so i’ll try to gain that mind set. Thanks again!
No problem. 🙂 Thinking optimistically is a challenge, but it makes a world of difference.
I wish you the best of luck. 🙂
~Ashley
Now that you mention it, that exact thing happened to me yesterday, and the day before….two separate incidents where I was happy and laughing, usually at someone’s conversation, you know, just joking around, and then afterward my mind said, “Holy shit, I forgot to be depressed!” (plunge). It was quite distressing and made me feel like the happy moment that just passed was fake or artificial and meaningless. I felt guilty for feeling good. I do have Type II Bipolar Disorder, so I suppose that fits.