Dear life, family, friends, enemies
As a kid we were read fairytales the kind where life was always perfect when it came to an end. I use to think “The End” mean’t that life was perfect. I always thought that one day I would find that guy and have the happy ending. But I grew up. & now I know that “The End.” isn’t for fairytales at all. Its when you realize that life isn’t happy and you finally realize you are done with suffering. Done with walking down the school hallway while everyone laughs. Done with hating yourself so much that you find the need to self harm yourself. Done looking in the mirror starring at someone you dont even know and wondering how all this happened.
Everything hurts now. The names, the laughing, the hate. It radiates off so many people around me so it must be because of me. They say that when you die a star is born into the night sky. I think I would much rather shine from above then despair from below. I would be everything they always wanted me to be. Beautiful, bright, skinny, amazing. Do you think god loves me? Even if he doesn’t my Grandpa’s are up there and they do. Sometimes I wish I could be up there with them. I dont even know what I did to make them hate me.
Sometimes life isn’t worth it.
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The elevator to an easy life is out of order, you will have to take the stairs one step at a time …..
We all die, but not all will live …get started ….
Thats good advice adastra thanks 🙂
welcome meg 🙂
Life is ‘mostly’ about our efforts and our thoughts …. from these two qualities, all things come ….
Take Care & stay strong 🙂
Ad Astra Per Aspera
What fairytales never tell you is life is hard work Keep working at it, it will come. It may not always be perfect, but it is worth it. Those kids who call names and laugh are masking their own pain and insecurities.
Sometimes you just hit “The End” but that’s okay. You definitely aren’t alone in that aspect, I mean just look at my user name…just don’t fret. Life’s unpredictable which you probably know. Hopefully you find a ray of hope so that when you do reach the night sky you can shine brighter than any other.
Keep looking for a healthy way out of your situation. Death is always waiting, so what do you have to lose if you try?
Yea..I agree with death always waiting so what do you have to lose if you try. Ive heard a preacher tell an atheist if you don’t believe in God & when the time comes when you find out there is a God you might feel kinda silly..but if you believe in God, you have nothing to lose. Right? Anyways the preacher told me that the atheist laughed in agreement so maybe it turned him around..only God knows!