Trust me..

I have been through it all. I lost my little brother at a really young age and then after losing him watched my whole family fall apart. My mom started drinking, my dad left our family and i was the main caretaker of my 1 year old sister as I was 7. I started craving attention so i would go find guys to say they loved me. Then one got me into pot. Not saying pot is bad. But it completely changed my life around. I didn’t give a fuck about my family or my friends. Just sneaking out seeing my boyfriend and smoking and drinking. I wanted to forget. When we broke up. I was sad, and I kept smoking to get rid of feelings. But I could never forget. Then I met the first love of my life, Cody. I loved him so much but he said he didn’t want a relationship until his sports ended. I respected it. We got in a fight because of something stupid I don’t even remember, and a couple days later I found out he hung himself. I was so lost. I loved him and I didnt even get to say hi. He was in a coma 3 days after the fact and it was just terrible to see him like that. Afterwards I was a wreck. I started to drink and do more drugs to hide the pain. My mom is insane and hates me she doesn’t make my life much better. I have attempted but every time i do i think of cody and i cant ,But finally shit is getting better for me. I have an amazing boyfriend who got me off drugs and I’m living in a stable household I have been sober for almost 3 months now. I adopted a dog and things are so much better. Even though I almost didn’t make it. I’m so happy I did. Things can get better. U