My suicidal thoughts are still here. Iâ€™m easily irritated, but at least I stopped choking. Now I smoke weed to take the stress and pain away. I flirt with my cousin hoping she falls for me, which is only a dreamâ€¦
I go to school, unconsciously shifting through class to class as a monotonous routine. My end feels so distant, yet so close. I want to off myself, but I donâ€™t have the willpower to do it. Fuckin
Yeah um sorry bout the anger and rage.
@one_day that electrifying kiss thing was yeah a bit of a thought as true love. Death just seems like the reliable choice for me. No change in that.
I have no motivation to go to school anymore. I just want death, I don’t care anymore. Im hopeless and worthless. Goodnight.