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I’m lost in my soul, and trapped in my mind</3

by ALLbeletsHAPPY

Hey all. Up until 5 days ago, I cut myself every night. I decided I need to stop. It was not helping anymore, and it was becomming a huge problem. or should I say it is a big problem. yeah.. yeah  it is. Today I couldnt help myself. I cant cope with reality. I feel like we have no purpose. We are born, we die. There is nothing to live for. Im lost in the universe. Im just afraid of what is and what there could be. And all the shit going on in my life. Moving, parents divorce, alcoholic dad, annoying sisters. no one gets what I feel. and I cant handle it, its overwhelming, so I cut again today. It was erm, good when it was happening, but im already regretting it. Also the thoughts of suicide have come up. Not me killing myself technically, more like if I was dead. If I was dead I wouldnt have to suffer so much. I dont think id be missed by many either. I think everyones life would be so much easier if I was just gone.. they would have no one to worry about. I dont know. My minds fucked up right now. urg. I wish I could just erase myself. painless, quick,e asy. and no one would remember me. cause id be erased. hmmph.

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Thomas Blom Karlsen 2/21/2012 - 12:28 am

Same here. I can’t find the reason to live anymore.. I havent startet cutting myself, but I might… Things are so bad now.. But hey, people do care about you! I know.. I didn’t think anyone would care if I was gone either, but I almost went through with suicide the other day.. but a friend of mine called for an hour before I picked up the phone to tell me not to do it. That’s a clear sign she do care! I didn’t think I had anyone.. But I did. And you also do! Want to know how I know that? Because I care about you! Yes, I have no idea who you are and just saw your post. But still I care about you. I care about the people on here writing and supporting one another. That’s what this website is about. And I want to help. Don’t kill yourself.. Not yet atleast. If you want more help, ask for my e-mail. I’ll help as much as I can.

There_is_always_hope 2/21/2012 - 12:32 pm

I feel the same but I can’t cut myself I understand that people who did that do it to have a certain control that they don’t have on their life, but me life make me suffer enough like that, but keep holding, you are not alone in this world.

twitchyy 2/21/2012 - 6:21 pm

i’d like to let you know i care as well. and i’m open if you ever want to talk about anything. i understand we’re strangers but we all our with our own issues. but maybe our different experiences being shared can help each other move forward and find the happiness everyone deserves.

ALLbeletsHAPPY 2/25/2012 - 11:54 am

Thank you<3 i really do appreciate it

ALLbeletsHAPPY 2/22/2012 - 12:53 am

To thomas: please dont cut yourself. I know it seems like itll help and be a good thing but it destroys a person so much more.. Also yes, ill get your email. You sould like you can relate to me…

Thanks<3

Thomas Blom Karlsen 3/19/2012 - 7:49 pm

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