This only applies to my own perception and not to anyone else’s. Do not want to be accused of trying to play the should game.
Seems everything is built around taking suffering and moving on. And those who choose not to are referred to as weak. I disagree. Sometimes people just get tired of the pain and the pleasure that does come is not enough.
No positive thinking or positive action will save one from all malevolence, and as ridiculous as that may sound to many people, I’d prefer a life free from any trouble.
Most trouble has no point and the ones that teach lessons are only worthy because there are more lumps coming. Many say the good cannot exist without the bad. That it would be boring. But if there were only good, then that would be all people knew so I doubt it would be boring except to a few.
Hope is one of the reasons my mentall lacking self is still here. Because I’ve given myself time to try different things to see if I can somehow overcome and banish all the things I consider malevolent.
To find that one secret that will save humanity from any more suffering. Deep down I know it will not happen but hope was beten into me so strongly that a tiny bit stil remains.
It is fading fast though and now that I have found the perfect method for my purposes I can now just exit the day all hope leaves.
To all of you who still want to live, young and old, I will send you all my strength at the end that I do not need anymore to keep fighting. Because event though we all die one day, suicide is not for everyone.
Some of you can be healed.  Some of you are victims and just need to be vindicated. Some of you just need someone to trule listen and care. Some of you despite being on the verge really want to stay around. And many of you have not even had the chance to live.
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One of my therapeuts once said to me that there will always be pain and suffering, it just depends a lot of how we choose to deal with it.. To me it feels hope is always the losing side of the battle, I guess it varies individually. I just feel so jealous towards those who can keep going no matter what tries to stop them. I think I have always been weaker than others. And still hope is probably the only thing that keeps me alive.. Hoping that someday I manage to make something out of my life.
Aactually from your last line you are one of those who goes on despite things.
And if you actually have that goal I am sure you will.
As for me, it just is not worth getting out of bed anymore.
People attack me almost on a daily basis but they are the losers in life. Put it this way, if you were attacked by some wild dog would you blame it for having a propensity to attack. Some of the mungrel dogs, it does not matter how kind you are to them or whether you are cruel, they will turn. Just like people. You should pity them and treat them accordingly.