I gave everything to someone who just walked away from me. I would get mad but never abuse him mentally. I gave so much to somebody who always said they would never hurt me, Is there ANY guy out there that would never let a girl go. I dont wanna feel like this anymore. Im 17 and have so much to offer. But the one person that was supposed to be there to run and cry, is the main reason for my pain. And i cant help but to believe that im a beautiful person yet i manage to get everything tooken from me.
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Boys/men aren’t all that bright. I noticed how every one of them always say the same line “I don’t want to hurt you” yet they screw things up anyway (even unintentionally). Love is tricky. Nothing/nobody is ‘perfect’. Hey~ this doesn’t really belong on a suicide forum. Whatever. Don’t be gullible. Don’t give your whole self to some person who won’t always be there. People leave. There is no forever. You’re young, too young to know what love is. Eh, I don’t know~
Then when is the right time to know what love is.
When you have matured mentally, young one.
I guess your right. Its hard being alone.. when you have so much to give.
Try reading Soft Soul’s posts. Gold advice there. That love and goodness you offer should be received by you first and foremost. Other people will come into your life naturally. For now, love yourself.
You’re no good to anyone if you’re not right and whole within your own being. Being young you have the opportunity to cultivate an unconditionally loving and appreciative view of yourself that will only bring you strength and because you love yourself..you will only be attracting people who love themselves and know how to love you authentically. Real relationships operate in a way whereby, each person isn’t trying to please the other person. They act out of love for themselves. When I kiss my gf or send her a nice msg, I’m doing it to express myself and share part of me, not to control a response from her to get a reaction to see that she still likes me…see the difference?
The lesson for you is to not give your power away. We do things either out of love or out of fear. So did you give everything away because you feared losing him? Many people do. It’s not your fault, no judgement, just something to be learned from.
Like Whitney said…’Learning to love yourself…it is the greatest love of all’.
and look what happened to Whitney.
I believe we need to love each other more and not pretend it all comes from within.
yeah and like softsoul says ‘ When I kiss my gf or send her a nice msg, I’m doing it to express myself and share part of me, not to control a response from her to get a reaction to see that she still likes me’
Acting out of love, authentically is the only chance for sustainable connection. Its a dance not a bribe.
If it is even genuine love for complete strangers. I wonder if hippies or christians fake it. Respect seems more real.
Song by Shawn Colvin …more beautiful to listen to but here are some of the lyrics…
title : I’ll Say I’m Sorry Now
I’m gonna let you down
I know that now
Make you cry, I know I will
For all the by and by
Hard as we try
The boughs breaks and the craddle falls
For everything I do
That will tear at you
Let me say I’m sorry now
So you can sing your song
You can get it wrong
You can kiss the rock of ages
The liars and the sages
You can walk awhile
down the mystery mile
You can beat the drums of freedom
And in love and war
Through the rush and roar
You just call ’em like you see ’em
‘If it is even genuine love for complete strangers. I wonder if hippies or christians fake it. ‘
I think that is a sense of compassion for our shared humanity but is so general as to be impersonal and too often not specifically very applicable to particular persons pain and need. Its like a warm blanket, not like surgery or healing from within.
‘Respect seems more real.’
I dont respect people I dont know .. I just don’t disrespect them either. But I can have compassion for strangers just because being mortal sucks and we are all that and what burdens come with knowing so.
People don’t have to be ‘of use’ to be cared about – at least I hope not because no one is of use at all times to all people and none of us can judge in the big picture who is of use to the world at large.