I hate being alone all the time. Â Especially now. Â I’m kind of drunk, so I’m actually kind of in a good mood. Â Well, good might be a bit of an overstatement, but it’s like I can pretend to be okay and I just wish there was someone to hang out with me and be silly drunk with. Â Bonus points if they’re a cute girl I can make out with. Â Haha.
I miss having friends. Â Real friends. Â Even if one of my (so-called) friends called me right now, it still wouldn’t be the same. Â I haven’t seen them a long time. Or even really talked to them. Â I’m not sure if I can relate to them anymore. Â I’m not sure if I can really relate to anyone normal anymore. Â I know some people might consider being called normal an insult, and while I do enjoy some of my abnormalities, I don’t enjoy this one. Â In terms of mood and mental functioning, I wish I were normal. Â I feel like I can’t relate to anyone who has never wished to be dead. Â We belong to different worlds. Â How am I supposed to care about school, to have ambitions for the future, to even care about anything at all when I just want to be dead?
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I know what u mean by belonging to different worlds. My “friends” just dont get me anymore, not that they ever really did. And the whole school thing yeah im with u on that too, exspecially since im a senior and everyone is asking me “whats ur plan for next yr?” oh i dont know jumping off the top off the 500 building sounds fun (4 levels high ive thought of it allot but the splat sort of freaks me out, i guess ill know how a fly feels haha) so yup…oh not to mention prom yay(VERY sarcatsic yay) so everyone is running around like headless chickens its like a damn abc family movie and a bunch of guys i dont know ask me too go but really they just want to go with the only mexican in a all white school to piss off thier parents… oh well i would MUCH rather go go-cart racing…but im girl so high school law says i cant do that..sorry this turned out to be more of a rant then a reply oh and yeah im alone all the time too so i guess we’re both messed up in more or less the same way haha