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Glass Armor

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 5/27/2016

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

Being in love… It’s something half of me enjoys quite a bit. Partly because of the excitement of discovering someone interesting enough to fall in love with. Partly because it makes me feel emotions I don’t typically feel.

But the other half of me is horribly afraid of this feeling. Partly because I’m weak to stop it from happening. Partly because I know that disappointment will inevitably follow suit, even if things did go my way. They always crumble apart.

I wish I’d never met you. Haha. That’s such a lie. Or is it?

5/27/2016 3 comments

i made a cake

by Wintergirl 4/24/2016

written by Wintergirl

Not really impressive, but it tastes pretty darn good. It’s one of those cakes with the pudding mixed in. Too bad I don’t have any frosting. Next time I am going all out with the cake baking. Homemade frosting and everything. Chocolate raspberry. Stay tuned. Haha.

4/24/2016 25 comments

The one that I find, I wonder, about the Scyther, google it

by Bisban 4/29/2015

written by Bisban

Cascade

I wonder, about Matcheux

Machoke, if it a man and

Then who am I

I know who are you

There’s nothing to be do

Haha, all to my system

The wind, making the sound

The magnetism, in the air

Sounds weird, sounds strange

No one will ever

4/29/2015 15 comments

Just Ranting

by acanthi 3/29/2015

written by acanthi

You know, depression is one frustrating thing. After you’ve been so good for such a long time you start to think you’ve beaten it and that’s that.
Like a cold that had finally decided it was time to leave.
But when you finally let your guard down and try to forget about all those depressed time, it decides to come back and feed on your positive life force.
Can I just have the cold instead please? Haha

I just don’t understand why it has to hide in my shadow, acting like molasses and weighing me down when I try to move forward. “Oh, hey there depression. […]

3/29/2015 1 comment

On an Island all alone

by FeelingFunny 3/26/2015

written by FeelingFunny

Standing on the shoreline looking out, all I see are blood red seas. The sun doesn’t shine here, so the sky is grey. The land doesn’t want me, so it makes it hard to live. Nature wants me dead. That’s why we all die anyways, it’s natural. But I have survived. Year after year I remain, but it’s just a flash of time anyway. Haha, this is such senseless shit. I’m bored and wish I were more intoxicated than I am

3/26/2015 8 comments

I’m here..

by leftorright 3/23/2015

written by leftorright

Looking for like minded people. I have dreamed of suicide since I was a teen. I made a couple feeble attempts as a teen but didn’t have the courage to pull it off. Now I’m a mother and I couldn’t put my child through the suffering of losing his only parent. I truly believe if I wasn’t a mother I wouldn’t be here. If anything ever happens to my son I would die soon after. He wants to go in the Army.. And I would never wish anything to happen to my boy but.. I can’t think of that. I love him more than anything. […]

3/23/2015 0 comment

Haha, a short poem

by FeelingFunny 12/30/2014

written by FeelingFunny

Another cold day, the sky is still grey. Everyone thinks I’m gay…………and it pisses me off!

12/30/2014 1 comment

figured it out

by Maeliin 11/5/2014

written by Maeliin

I found a way out. Haha I found my method… I want to get out. Haha… but I’m unsure of if it’s what I want… I mean it is, in every sense it’s always on my mind; suicide. I can’t pretend I have no one that would care… there are plenty… I suppose I’m just worried about what they will do…I know some are as unstable as i am.. and I’d never wish them to harm themselves….

11/5/2014 1 comment

Suicide Pact

by Alexther 7/21/2014

written by Alexther

Well,I guess we’ll soon find out if I’ll live or die through this…

I just made a suicide pact with myself.I’m going in vacation back to my homecountry of Romania and,if things don’t change for the better until the end of the summer,then that’s it.It will never change for the better.It’s now or never.

I’m not even hoping that things will get better,because I know that every time I put my hopes in something,it turns into a huge and painful disappointment.Sometimes I really want something very bad to happen so I have a ”reason” to kill myself,as if I don’t already have one…

Haha,anyway,if I do commit suicide […]

7/21/2014 4 comments

Hello Beautifuls (:

by vaaaaanna 9/25/2013

written by vaaaaanna

Wow it’s been awhile since I last read through all these stories.

All I have to say to all you beautiful human beings that are feeling low and depressed, or thinking of the most craziest shit to do? Is SMILEEEEEEE (: From one ear to another, stretch that smile of yours. Who knows, you might just make someones day with that beautiful smile.

Be happy, or well you could TRY and be happy. If it doesn’t work? Smoke a blunt. haha kidding (: Have a dance in your room, put those earphones on maximum volume and dance like its the end of the world. I promise you, […]

9/25/2013 4 comments

where to even begin

by notalwaysgreener 1/7/2013

written by notalwaysgreener

so today is the big day, my 16th birthday. it was great at school. i heard happy birthday from all of my friends, got all of the attention blah blah blah. that’s nice and all but what i would die for right now would be for my mom to tell me. it’s almost 4 oclock and i have yet to hear those 2 words come out of her mouth. this may sound selfish of me to some people. but i am just someone who lives and breathes for my mom to accept me, and to be interested in me. but oh well. i’m looking into […]

1/7/2013 3 comments

Maybe I just need to rant? I don’t know.

by blindaudio 12/29/2012

written by blindaudio

Many of you have seen me here.

And what really can be said. If I could right now, I’d take my own life because there seems to be no light at the other end. I’m flat it seems like with no emotion and I hate that feeling. I’ve gone through a lot in my life, not as much as some on here, but I’ve got demons I live with every day and don’t know how to take it anymore.

So why do I write? No idea. I guess just to say, I’m tired of it? That I live through life alive but dead? And that I’m […]

12/29/2012 2 comments

ummm..

by rawrimaturtle.. 11/22/2012

written by rawrimaturtle..

i got a girlfriend! woohooo. asked her out on tuesday. she said yes. so now me and her are together.. but shes pretty busy so we dont get to hang out much.

i told one of my friend about how i have a girlfriend and hes like “what? but you’re not a lesbian.” and that just pissed me off. yah im not a lesbian. im pansexual.

i burnt my finger last night.. got bored so i was melting plastic with my lighter and it dripped onto my finger, i hope it doesnt get infected..

got a new look, more punk now and i LOVE it. tho i do […]

11/22/2012 0 comment

Make Like Kurt Cobain.

by DarlingDaughterDamaged 10/25/2012

written by DarlingDaughterDamaged

Seriously?

That’s what it comes down to?

For those of you who don’t know SP chat used to be a great place to vent, find friends, even be yourself. But the tides have changed. An influx ofÂ immature Moderators and Admins has made it a living hell. No one can get along when there is always a side to be chosen. The chat was closed TWICE last night. Whatever happened to talking it out?

When the chat closes you aren’t just making the people fighting angry you make EVERYBODY angry. Â Oancu needs to learn to stop complaining all the time, and let someone else speak. Custard. STOP DEFENDING HER. […]

10/25/2012 19 comments

I lost my last possible chance at happiness

by kthxbai2u 8/15/2012

written by kthxbai2u

After all the bullshit, the hospital, etc. I felt no more ‘better’ than I did before all of that crap (read my other posts to find the other shit I have been going through). I actually feel much much worse than before (this post explains most of it).

I was trying to find just one reason to stay alive, and figured I could make one with my XGF. I figured we could try things again. I figured I could stay permanently, and make the kid’s life better. Now that she has no chance, the poor kid will go through “father” after “father” after “father”. She claims […]

8/15/2012 1 comment

positivity?

by birthright 7/30/2012

written by birthright

im trying to force my way through today to be positive, my friend recently moved out of my house and she lives quiet a way away now and i really miss her, my brother also moved even furthur away recently. i really miss being able to easily hang around with them, they were my reasons for waking up, they still are, its just abit more difficult. i feel kind of lost, i like being around people when the black cloud of deppresion isnt horribly distorting who i am. so im going to try and go outside today, even if its just walking around in my […]

7/30/2012 2 comments

lonely to death

by fakingit 6/10/2012

written by fakingit

why am i. oh that’s right. haha cuz i have no life. FUCK THAT LIFE U WIN! LIFE ISNT FAIR AND THATS EXACTLY RIGHT!!!!! I got itÂ i shall take a plastic bag cover it over my head tonight fall asleep and viola im gone. it will suffocate me to death and maybe wont even realize it! YES I FOUND MY WAY OUT OF THE EARTHLY FUCKING HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6/10/2012 4 comments

Slipping, I guess?

by prince 5/26/2012

written by prince

So I guess I never really considered trying to write out my story anywhere, but maybe getting it all down will help me put it into perspective, help me decide whether or not I can take this, haha.Â

I’m turning 17 this December and my most frequent thought is generally that “I’m so young why is everything already so bad.”
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I should be out, enjoying life, enjoying myself, going places with my life, planning for post secondary.Â

But nothing is happening, I’m not doing anything. Lack of motivation is a horrible thing isn’t it?

I grew up in Canada, having moved to BC when I was just […]

5/26/2012 6 comments

drunk and ugh.

by evildandelions 3/3/2012

written by evildandelions

I hate being alone all the time. Â Especially now. Â I’m kind of drunk, so I’m actually kind of in a good mood. Â Well, good might be a bit of an overstatement, but it’s like I can pretend to be okay and I just wish there was someone to hang out with me and be silly drunk with. Â Bonus points if they’re a cute girl I can make out with. Â Haha.

I miss having friends. Â Real friends. Â Even if one of my (so-called) friends called me right now, it still wouldn’t be the same. Â I haven’t seen them a long time. Or even really talked to […]

3/3/2012 1 comment

don’t even know why i’m posting this stupid long shit

by deadinside9 3/2/2012

written by deadinside9

been doing some journaling lately and got an urge.

SourceURL:file:///Users/Jesse/Documents/Writing/2-24-2012

2/4/12

Well, Iâ€™m trying something I figured Iâ€™d do on the way home.

Just got back from Dr. Markowitz and again was having discussions about doing things, how I donâ€™t wanna do things, all the negative thoughts, all the incentive not to, how I wanna die all the time, and shit like that. Since I always seem to have a little shred of positivity after I come home from him, I decided on the train home that maybe Iâ€™d try writing down my thoughts, something he has suggested and has been suggested many times before, so here I am.

Everything […]

3/2/2012 6 comments