just once…

just for once i would love to go over that edge, just jump, c wat happens, let that fucking mental breakdown just happen, let the walls crumble down c wat  ..o shit….., if it were only me the choices wud b easier, but, im married, shit, now i have t o take his feelings into consideration, if i had known that i was going to end up like this i NEVER wud have married, its like u r too friggin scared to jump but there is no other option, so u r there on the edge just…just…puting off the inevitable…..today sux…