I pushed someone I loved away from me. Someone beautiful who loved me back, loved me without hesitation. I acted terribly and I still don’t know why. It’s months and months later and I still haven’t gotten over it. I’ve run my friends ragged with this and I’m about out of options. I don’t WANT to kill myself but the pain of knowing it’s all my fault simply won’t leave. I see no other way out. I guess it’s what I deserve.
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Don’t do it. We all make mistakes. But killing yourself is the worst mistake you can make. Because you don’t know what comes after, all you have is now. All we can do is try to make the most of things. Of the choices we make.
You don’t deserve death, and your friends, parents, and community ( including us) doesn’t deserve the pain, hopelessness, and self-blame that would come if you did kill yourself. Apologize to the beautiful person you feel you pushed away…whether they’re still around or not…and realize you can only make up for past wrongs with present and future actions. Live life the way you feel is right from here on out. That’s the only way to move on luv. Good luck, be brave
you kill yourself because u think that your life is bad check out mine right below yours