You read the stories of people suffering and slowly dying. You hear the words of being told a person is dead over and over again in your dreams. You see everyone you know around you dying suddenly without signs. You cry every night when you remember them living. You beg God to somehow bring them back to you and alive again. You feel the presence of your lost friends at your side all the time. You replay the scenes of their death over and over again. You spend hours memorizing facts about the people you lost. You reread your last message or recall your last words constantly. You remember your last moment, your last hug, your last goodbye. You stare at the ceiling all day wondering what you could’ve done differently. You blame yourself for the death of your friends. You wonder why you feel guilty when you did the most. You question whether or not you will ever be okay again.
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I just wanted to give you a hug. *hug* losing loved ones is one of the most painful things there is. you’re not alone though,we’re all here for you.I’m so sorry for your loss.you’re in my prayers.
hi, farmerstrong13. I’ve lost far too many people who were part of my life. I know some of the pain that you’re going through. Over time, I hope that you carry their memories forward… and your pain is reduced. If you need to talk, we’re here for you.
I’ve had about 10 losses in the last 2 years, and it’s all starting to add up. Thank you for your support. It’s appreciated.
And distant.road, thank you also. It’s appreciated. I’m sorry for your losses also.
Thank you… I do my best to not forgot them… and the memories… and I sometimes think of whether they’d approve of one thing or another that I might be contemplating. That’s the best way I know to honor them.
Yeah. I try to honor each and every one of them as much as I can. I think of them a lot too. Thank you.
I believe they are always with us. I was really close to my great uncle,and it’s so funny-if i’m about to do something i know he won’t approve of,it’s like i can hear just what he would say,just like it was yesterday. the ones we love are never really gone. we carry them around with us in our hearts. their love is always with us.
They’re definitely always with us. They’re in our hearts and our memories and always will be until we die. There are people we never forget, memories we never forget.