Diseases and plagues are easy to withstand
Hurricanes and earthquakes that reduce your world to sand
Are inconsequential compared to the torture,
The interminable agony you endure
Resistance or reversal ever futile
Against an all-consuming affliction of the devil
Warping every happiness to a misery
Past becoming future: time unravels slowly
But insanity is a loathed escape
From the hell you yourself create
Your thoughts breed a deserved hatred
A roiling pain that incubates inside
Of every word, every action you’ve ever committed
Knowing yourself a failure at everything you ever tried
It’s a pain, a hate you cannot escape
No matter how fast, how far you run these toxic ideas you cannot shake
Your mind systematically destroying you
Ruining every single part of whatever good was left in your soul
Praying for any inhibitor of thoughts
Because anything and everything matter naught
While you’re trapped in the infinite cycle of pain
Eating itself in the unstoppable loop that’s claimed
All of your life, your love, your possibility
Now you long to out-run your disability
Any portal to the liberating night
No cost is too great to evade the light
Your thoughts breed a deserved hatred
A roiling pain that incubates inside
Of every word, every action you’ve ever committed
Knowing yourself a failure at everything you ever tried
It’s a pain, a hate you cannot escape
No matter how fast, how far you run these toxic ideas you cannot shake
So you only hope for an end
A permanent reprieve from yourself
At first, you didn’t want to die
At first, a little peace was all you wanted
Just a little peace
A simple peace