I’ve been cutting for ten years, but I never cut with a razor. Â I’ve cut with everything else from knives to staples. Â Tonight I couldn’t help myself. Â I don’t want to disappoint anyone, especially distant.road because you have been sooo wonderful and helpful. Â I hate when I do things that make others lose faith in me, so I hope this hasn’t. Â I unscrewed a pencil sharpener with a brand new blade in it and was startled by how quickly you bleed with razors. Â I need to throw it away but it is just laying on the windowsill next to my bed. Â I can’t get myself to throw it away or even hide it, I’m so mesmerized by it. Â Please don’t be disappointed in me. Â I’m scared.