When will the Pain and Hurt go away??

I feel low, I feel sad
backs against the wall now
Noone to call, Im so mad
I’ve been stabbed, I grab the knife from my back
I stab it in you harder, than when you stabbed me
Im so lonely, lost in my mind
Not knowing when it’ll be my time
Not too soon, not too late
I wait patiently in my room
The sounds of booms trigger voices
they eat at me Im hearing noises, what choices do I have?
Are they good or are they bad?
I feel so low, so I slowly run this blade across my wrists
wanting to take this life of mine. Not thinking about
will I be missed?, who if anyone would even miss me?
Noone because Im lost in misery.
Noone here to even hear me
I beg for help, I seek a better day
Noone around to take it all away. All this pain, and all this hurt
has left me to bloody up another shirt.
When will the pain and hurt go away?
When will I ever stop suffering?
With this blood Im coloring, this black, white and gray life of mine.
Looking to seek light not dark.
Please help me before I do something drastic. Like stop my own heart…