I just got done cutting my wrist about ten minutes and i regret it!! i was just so upset and angry. My mom said that if it happens again she is going to take away my license and car. i dont want that!!!! i dont know what to do?!? I dont want her to find out but its so hott so i cant cover it up she knows by now that if i say it was the dog that im lieing! i dont know whats going to happen. i need advice.
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Maybe her finding out is for the best. Try wearing a long sleeve top and keep a low profile until it heals.
Yes you do need help. Cutting is addictive and not normal (I can’t even imagine wanting to cut myself). You need real help. Your mom is obviously worried but it’s hard for her to help you because (possibly, like me) she does not understand the addiction to cutting. Maybe she thinks that a punishment would keep you from doing it but she’s wrong. Telling someone who self-harms to ‘just stop doing it’ is like telling a drug addict to sit in a room full of drugs and touch nothing. I would suggest you go to Forever 21 and buy a wide and bendable bangle for 1 dollar and wrap it around the cut area until it heals. If you get caught, start crying and tell her you need help. Most mothers are weak against their children. If you convince her that if she gets you help, you will stop, then maybe she will focus on helping you get better rather than giving you another reason to cut yourself. Practice those alligator tears.
I just realized if you went “down the river†rather than “across the river†then a thick bagel wouldn’t help much. Can you use concealer? Or always carry something like a book or homework when she is close by.
cutting is addictive. every time i cut it feels good and then just like you i feel regret. I say get help. im not encouraging you to cut if you must i’d do it high up on my thigh or hip..(something you can cover easily) or just stop. then i again i told myself that and now im cutting again. anyways best of luck with that.
Because cutting can be a way to cope, simply trying to stop can make things worse for some people. Sometimes finding another less harmful way to get the inner pain out of you is a better idea. Anything that creates a strong sensation on your skin without breaking might be better. Good luck.
I know how you feel, I can relate because I cut myself too. Your mom finding out can be the best thing, No one knows I cut myself and it can make you feel all alone and isolated, it can also make you really paranoid. I would try wearing a long sleeved t-shirt or a jumper till it heals. And @Conrad and @fakingit are right! Cutting is addictive, and before long it can become serious. Try not to worry to much to what will happen as that can make you stress out more possibly causing you to do much more damage than you want to!
Anyway good luck and take care. Hope everything get’s better for you :)x
just to clarify. my mom already knows i cut but she doesnt know that i still do it. She thought i stopped when she threatened to take away my license. I did stop because taking away my license is the worst thing someone could do to me. But today i started cutting again and i covered it up with coverup. I just wish i had to will power to stop cutting myself. like i just got into a huge fight with her about my car and license because i through a pudding cup at my sister out of anger. (long story). and i slammed my door and now im in my room and i want to cut again. i have the plastic in my hand but i just dont want her seeing or finding out because not only will my liicense get taken away but she will prob send me to a mental. hospital and i dont want that but i dont have the will to stop cutting. i dont want to stop i just wish when shes around the scars and scratches would dissapear
@StaceyCorbin Like you, I wish I had the will power to stop as well but when you’re sitting there with the plastic or a blade in your hand and you stare at your arm or where ever your cutting, it can be really hard to remember that it hurts not just yourself but the people who care. I’m really scared to tell my mom too because I don’t want to go to a Mental Hospital either and I don’t want to feel like I’m letting her down, I always hide my arms from her and try to avoid being around them. It’s horrible when you know you’re hiding things from them…but when you start cutting, Sure it feels good to get rid of the mental pain for the physical pain but does it really last? and the cuts, sure they heal but they scar and the scars stay there for a long time!
i know! like i really do not want to be sent away. i really do not want her knowing that i continue to do so. and yeah the scars stay for so long!!! i cant get any of them to go away and they are dark too
Yea I know…I’m anemic so my scars are reeally vivid and can be seen really easily, and I dont wanna be sent away either cause it’ll make thigs worse! It’s really horrible when you get into these situations where your scars are showing and you don’t know then you realise and try and hide them again but end up making it more suspicious looking…I hate when that happens! It’s soo hard to hide all the time from people as well and it starts to make you less trustful of people! Plus people start to notice when you start acting different and stuff…
tonight i was in therapy with my mother and i was talking about something and she saw the scars and stopped me mid sentence and was like.. “when did you do those?” and so i told her because they were from tuesday. and she and my therapist both said that they were worried. well actually, my therapist says she worries about me and my mother was more angry(as i thought she would be). and my therapist said that if this continues i will be sent away and the whole nine yards. They both think that i am doing it for attention because im doing it in a spot which is in clear view alot and yes i did do it for attention at first but now im addicted to it and whenver something goes wrong its the first thing i think of and do. I told them that but i dont think they believe me. I also told them that i didnt want to quit but i had to because of what the consequences might be. I just dont think they full understand that i am not doing it for attention anymore and that i am doing this because i like it and im addicted to it. they just dont understand because they have never been in this position before. i dont know. i just feel like they arent listening to me because if they did then they would surely send me away but im not complaining because with the way they are thinking i am not being sent away even though i am extremely aggravated that they arent understanding me. its just such a confusing situation
I just found out that my dad is cheating on my mom again!! this is the sixth time!! when will she realize that enough is enough. He tried to say that when his phone gets to a really low battery that when he sends and receives texts that it says it could be going to someone else when actually its really going to the person he intended it to go to. for example, my dad said he “Sent” a text message to his friend paulie but because his phone is low on battery it says it was sent to the girl but he said it was really sent to paulie his friend. i dont believe that!
im calling bluff on that shit!