I awake once again… but i keep trying…

I thouht i was finaly done.. I felt happy that id b able to leave the pain of the world i thought for shure this time id bleed out and die for good. All i did was wake up with my arms coverd in blood…… for the people who commented on my last post. happy? im still here and in even more pain… its 2 am now hopfully if i try again ill bleed out by morrning.. so this time i hope its really goodbye..