I don’t have any reason to live.

Earlier in the school year I actually likes school but now I really hate it. It is so hard to get out of bed every morning knowing that I have to face going to school. I am so bored every day and nothing interests me. I spend all my time online between when I get hame from school and when I go to bed because there is nothing in my life that interests me. I feel so depressed all the time it makes me feel like I will explode because I just feel se trapped in my own head, like I am a prisoner to my emotions. I feel alienated from my family and I don’t really have any friends. There are people that I sit with at lunch but I never really talk to them other then that and they barley even know me. I feel so lonely and depressed and my life seems so worthless because I hate everything in it. I don’t really want to live anymore because my life seem so pointless. Just being nothing seems better then hating everything. I want to cry because I feel so sad but life feels so dull and gray that I don’t feel like it is even possible to cry. I wish I was dead.